Saturday, June 30, 2012

It's a tad chilly here

It's been two days since I quit my job, and I'm left wondering:

a) Did I give it enough of a chance?
b) Is Double D ever going to speak to me again?

It's been a little "chilly" at my house lately, if you know what I mean. So yesterday I drove out to the graveyard and sat beside my mother's grave with visions of crawling in there with her. Sorry to be so morose. Too many events in six months for the average person (me) to cope with, I guess.

After my pity party I drove out to my grandparents' property which my Uncle Jay now owns. I called to let him know that I'd be out there and he told me to pick whatever I wanted from his garden and enjoy myself. Shortly after I arrived, a distant cousin named CJ drove up on his tractor. We had a nice chat, then he mowed the grass and I found some insects to photograph. We both finished at the same time so he invited me to follow him up the road because he wanted to give me some vegetables from his garden. That little act of kindness brightened my day considerably.

Sometimes I wish I lived out in the country where people seem to care and share more. There's more time to just be and relax. I've seriously contemplated buying a piece of property where my mother and I grew up so that my children will always have a connection with the place. But I think I've made too many major decisions this year already, so I'm going to let that thought marinate for a while.

These are the spiders that used to freak me out as a child. According to my friends at Project Noah, it's a banana spider.

I've not seen a dragonfly with this color scheme before. I believe it's a female blue dasher.

This one appears to have something green on his chin...hmmm....

Looks like he's eating a bug!  Do y'all see that, too?

These interesting insects were all over the tomato plants. He's got a southwest design going on, don't you think?

Hope it thaws out around here soon because if it doesn't I'm going to be taking a trip somewhere, anywhere, very soon. Watch out, I might just end up on YOUR doorstep. Don't worry, I jest. :) Y'all have a good one. I promise my next post will have a happier tone.

42 comments:

TexWisGirl said...

you just grab your camera, a few overnight things, hop in the car and head towards dallas. when you're about an hour and a half away, give me a call and i'll give you directions to run*a*round. only thing - you can't mind dog hair or lots of dust. but i'll have margaritas, wine, plenty for you to photograph here, and a listening ear. and i'd love the company. :)

Hilary said...

It's been a very stressful time for everyone, Gail. Give yourself and Double D time to adjust.

Love the dragon fly and even the spider despite my distaste for them, in general. It's awfully colourful. That bug at the end appears to have flippers.

Spare Parts and Pics said...

Great photos. Your life philosophy seems very good, too. Letting big decisions marinate always helps me... especially when too many other things are going on.

Tree Hugger - Suzan said...

Such a difficult time you are going through right now! A good cry always helps. Seems that you do have good family members and a place to escape to. Make a list and then number the things that you must and need to get done. Be kind to yourself is #1! Time does heal. God Bless you Gail!

Danielle said...

I always soothe my aching heart through my camera lens. What wonderful shots you got!! I have no wise words except maybe now is the time for you be kind to yourself and seek out more of those "in the moment" moments. Looking back trips you up as you try and move forward. Don't second guess yourself, you made your choice for a reason. It doesn't matter that no one but you understands that reason. Wrap yourself in your mother's hugs and again...be as kind to yourself as you know she would have been. God bless.

Evelyn S. said...

Well, maybe even taking a job so soon after the death of your mother was part of the problem. You've had a terribly rough time over the past many months. Hopefully, the situation "thaws" and you find yourself moving forward again.

the wild magnolia said...

Your photographs are wonderful. I love to visit.

I hope the thaw comes soon. Been there, done that.

Tammy@Simple Southern Happiness said...

Well drag yourself on over to GA and you can come visit Charlotte and I. But the heat may keep us inside but I can sure finds some places for us to go like Fernbank Since Center.

OUTSTANDING photos of that spider, now how close did you get? ME... I would have had my 300mm lens on and back as far as I could, they scare me to death.

The dragonflies are awesome!

So if it does not warm up there, you have places to go. It takes time to heal, my dad passed away in 2005 and I still am sitting on the edge of tears. So people will just have to understand that these changes in your life are still fresh. You will know when its the right time. DONT push it... we all need time in our own way.

GOD bless and lift your spirits.

Tammy@Simple Southern Happiness said...

Ooops...and Suzz Tree Hugger... We will keep your mind busy, we all love to talk so we will keep your brain occupied.

Vagabonde said...

I really like your pictures – they are so clear and colorful. I am sorry that you don’t feel good but I certainly can understand why. Losing one’s mom is terrible – my mom has been gone 10 years now and I still think about her a lot. If the job made you so unhappy so soon, it was not worth it. It would have been even worse after a while and more difficult to leave. This way it was like a trial period and it did not work, that’s all – don’t question it anymore. Something better will turn up.

Deanna said...

I'll join you on that trip wherever you decide to go. I had a little pity party this afternoon myself. You're allowed. You may have a long chin, but your photos are just fabulous. Amazing clarity.

Laura Delegal - Leroy Photography said...

Even in the midst of your hurt, Gail, you make me smile. You have such a way with words. Things will thaw out soon, I'm sure Double D will come around and remember that your sanity is important. Hold tight and just don't push away. Praying for you. Just stay the path.

Laura Delegal - Leroy Photography said...

Oh! And I LOVE banana spiders. They intrigue me. Great shots.

Shug said...

Oh no Gail....I didn't know that you quit...I'm a little behind here. Our son-in-law has been on a missions trip for 10 days now, in a country that makes us nervous, so I have been baby sitting our daughter and the kids. Has really messed up my schedule! Not to worry..these guys like to act the part, but get over things a lot faster than us women do..
Great photos ....just stay busy with that camera..You can make lots using that thing...I'm lifting you up in prayer right now...hugs
shug

Autumn said...

Echoing others' comments, just give it time! This too shall pass.

Love the spider and dragonflies! So colorful and sharp. And you can always visit Portland! Or take a trip to see Michael?

Kathy said...

And I'm on the way to TexWis' place. The three of us could have a darned good time!

Your dragonfly pictures are fabulous! I've not been successful at a dragonfly but my talent is not as advanced as yours. What kind of lens do you use for these?

heyBJK said...

I've never seen a Banana Spider before, but love the colors! Your dragonfly shots are awesome! Nice work!

I hope things turn around for you and you feel happy again. It'll happen.

Phil said...

Sorry the job didn't work out Gail but sometimes you have to do what feels best. You got some great images there and I just said "wow" when I saw the banana spider. Maybe you should look into taking your photography more seriously as an alternative to having to take crappy jobs and working for people you don't like.

Pieces of Sunshine said...

Love your first dragonfly photo, so crisp. Must be nice to have family somewhat nearby, maybe you need a little more time around them to thaw out some more....

Rosie Grey said...

Thanks so much for your wonderful message on my blog, Gail! I do appreciate that you took the time to come by, especially as you are having such a rough time yourself! I'm so sorry to hear about your new job not working out as you had wished. I'm crossing my fingers for things to settle down and for a happier time for you!! Big hugs!!!
Oh, before I forget - those photos are so stunning! I'm glad to be back and admire them!!

Starla said...

I am soooo amazed that you get such awesome close up photos of insects!! (ok...the spider I would have NEVER gotten that close too...ick! LOL!)

Be strong in your thoughts. Your decision to quit was right for YOU. Doesn't matter what Double D thinks at this point. Something else will come along that fits you better. Be patient. Wait for the right job/opportunity. It will come

Lisa @ Two Bears Farm said...

I'm sorry it's a rough spot for you Gail. I hope things look up soon.

hootnonny said...

The shots are wonderful Gail!

My words are not as elegant as those already expressed, but know I care and will keep you in my prayers. And you're always welcome in my little corner of the world!

Linda said...

These are some wonderful shots. I've seen banana spiders before but never noticed those colors. Same with the dragonflies and/or damselflies. You do a beautiful job with this type of photo.

beth said...

i'm sorry it's chilly in your house....i've been there, but never for more than 24 hours.....so if it lasts much longer, use the phrase i gave you...wink wink !!

and now i have to say....OMG....that spider is amazing. i hate spiders, but this photo is TOO fantastic !!

and yes, i totally see that bug in the dragonfly's mouth....yuck :)

Deb Crecelius said...

Gail, you've gotten some really good advice
and totally accurate compliments on the wonderful photos.
Good job!
Praying for an early thaw.

Linda R said...

Hey if you need to escape, I live in Vegas. Lots of people love to visit here. I personally don't know why. Its to darn hot here. I do hope you find you smile soon my friend. Just give it some time. I love you photos.. Those dragonfly's look so cool..

Hugs~

ladyfi said...

It's been very stressful for you. I'm sure things will warm up and soon... Perhaps a weekend trip away wouldn't be such a bad idea.

Lovely shots.

Dave said...

I agree with Hilary's comments Gail. She's a very wise lady. I hope things thaw out for you both soon. I understand how you feel - Dave

Tricia Hays said...

If ya don't mind the heat, which you're from the south, so I know you don't, swing by... You remind me too much of my aunt Carol to turn you away if you showed on my doorstep! LoL! =)

they're all beautiful captures, but I love the dragonflies! =)

Michelle said...

Well...come on over...my door is open for as long as you like. But could you come here first, so I can join you when you visit everyone else? :) Oh my...what fun that would be!!!

Rosie leavesnbloom said...

I hope your chill thaws soon for you. Just became a new follower after reading a few comments you left elsewhere over the past few days.

Love your nature photography and would be interested in your thoughts of the 35mm f1.2. I've been looking at it but wasn't sure about it after reading a few reviews.

Great DOF in your dragonfly shots - did you use a macro lens.

sorry for all the questions :)

Ruth said...

These pics are stunning, a great deal of beauty came from your day, so that's a positive thing :)

Sallie (FullTime-Life) said...

Don't forget your camera when you come!!! (Love all your creepy-crawlers, your pictures are so bright and lovely....xcpt that one on the tomato plant looks like it might not be good for them (if I were lucky enough to have a tomato plant I wouldn't want to share the produce with anybody -- or any bug ;>)~

Be happy -- just be -- take pictures -- don't make any decisions right now ;>)

Barbara Shallue said...

You've got plenty to be morose about, but your blog felt very upbeat anyway. I'm sure it will thaw out soon there... but you know you're always welcome here in Long Hollow! I love banana spiders, by the way - from a distance!!

bailey-road.com said...

These are wonderful captures - so colorful!

Nancy Claeys said...

Hey -- you are a big girl, Gail, and I think you are allowed to make big girl decisions about like, where you work. Stand up straight and be strong in your convictions. You've been through alot this year and that job apparently was the last straw.

I've quit better jobs than that, trust me! Lol. It'll be okay. Come to the farm -- I know we'd have a good laugh at that CEO's expense. :)

Dianne said...

the spider looks like he's dressed for the 4th of July !!
you take some seriously beautiful photos lady
concentrate on your talents and give yourself a break

you're welcome in Jersey any time at all

Butterbean Row said...

Gail,
How did I miss this post!? Lordy, Mercy, Goodness, girl, you can come here any time and I mean it. DD is suffering from shock. Give him some time. He will come around.

I am glad that you quit. It never seemed a good fit in God's plan for you. One door is closed; another will open. You just need to trust in Him.
Those are some serious pictures there. Look like something from science fiction. ha! Gorgeous, though. And I am glad you found a peace in capturing these creatures.

Hugs,

♥charlotte

Tricia Hays said...

You're MIA, I hope all is well & it's warmed up around the place!!! =)

Lisa Gordon said...

You've had a difficult road for many months Gail. Give yourself and Double D some time. I know there will be much brighter days ahead for you.
xo.

septembermom said...

I'm thinking of you my friend. You are a bright, wonderful light here in blogland... hugs